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Saturday, September 23, 2006 @Saturday, September 23, 2006
It has been a hectic 7 weeks of school and it ends off well with the night cycling event. I'm indeed thankful that I'm still keeping "afloat" with my studies, hopefully I won't start to lag behind again..
Even at this point in time, I'm still uncertain about my future. I have been quite settled down in my current state and well inertia does takes place both mentally and physically. Can I really end up pursueing a medicine degree and ultimately end up as a successful dermatologist or aesthetician, which has always been my dream to aid distress people over their physical appearance and boost up their self confidence? Can I really cope with the STRESSFUL heavy work load that the course demands? Will I be just jumping into a pit of endless debts? Will my noble passion sustain me through the difficult times?
Not as if my current course is very relaxing.. but I guess it should be comparatively to medicine. Tomorrow is my interview and i really need to do some self reflections.
All along I wanted to be a doctor cos I wanted to serve humanity in a tangible way as a career. I believe all along that it is my calling from god. I have an interest in working in e medical and research field too after doing voluntary work in the hospital and participating in research project and competition. I believe that it is god's gift to me that sciences is my forte and I grasp scientific concepts with much ease. Some people may point out that I could be a nurse instead of a doctor to serve humanity but:
1. I can't be a dermatologist or a researcher if I am a nurse
2. I want to challenge myself to bear e responsibility of my patients condition instead of merely following the doctor's instructions if im the nurse
My sensitivity to others, my unwavering determination and humility are my strengths for studying medicine.
When I set my mind in doing well, I will definitely put in my utmost best to succeed in my studies. That's why I tend to stress myself up with my targets. I guess im a persons who seeks to become a high achiever and a perfectionist.
I also try to bring joy and show care to my surrounding people. I will make conscieous efforts to be tactful with my words and lend a listening ear to people who are willing to share their woes with me. I may not be ill but I will try my best to alleviate the pain of others cos seeing people in agony pains me.
I am a also teacheable person. I'm willing to learn from people regardless of their educational status and social standings cos everyone has different experiences and I know that these experiences and opinions, whether conflicting or similar to my own knowledge, will indeed give me a thorough and in depth understanding of the topic. I truly believe that humility is the essence of becoming a doctor because w/o it, corporation within the hospital community is difficult and I might not be examining the patient's condition thoroughly if I assume that I know everything. I recognise that studying medicine will definitely be a life long process since new diseases will surface in this ageing population and more new drugs and medical procedures created need to be taught as I practise medicine. Some people may feel that what is the meaning of becoming a doctor when people will die even after attempting to save them. Although death is inevitable, I desire to bring hope to each surviving patients giving them confidence to live each passing day. Is this too idealistic?
Being overly emotional and impatient are my short comings. Emotions can cause misjudgements in doctors. I guess I have to consider e serious implications of all my actions before I made a decision. Being impatient, nervous and frenzy when situations suddenly arise may worsen the entire situation. However, I feel that with experience comes a knowledge to deal with impromptu situations and knowing that im incharge of the situation, I have to remain calm and compost.
Lord, I lift my interview tomorrow up to u. May your will be done.
