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This blog was initially set up with the intention to improve my writing skills. But now, it is more abt reflecting on my life regularly, knowing that today, God has written a chapter o my life and I wanna live my life to the fullest for him. He is the one that creates every step in my life and I'm in full anticipation at what he will reveal to me slowly. I will be patiently awaiting...=)


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i suddenly feel how inadequate i am. This is the time when i feel that my confidence is thrown into the ocean and cannot be found..


im not as smart as i think.. im not as pretty as i think.. im not as sociable as i think.. im not as altruistic as i think.


a sudden surge of incompetency amidst my studies.. a part of me is torn betw having my well deserved rest and fearing for exams. i begin to realised that even if grades do not matter at all back in spore.. i will still be doing my best cos im not sure how much efforts i should moderate to just pass. the only difference betw exchange n in spore is there is much less stress while studying because i can comfort myself: no worries.. just need to pass.

the fear of failing.. is prob the the main source of stress. It is always when u start to compare with others that u become more strict with yourself. conflict between who u dream to be and who u r now. I must learn to accept failures.. accept my imperfections as i strive for self improvement. It is perhaps in my weakness that I started to draw strength from the lord.

Is learning to be contented a way to escape from failure? If im contented with what i have, even if i fail to achieve more, I will still be happy. But how easy it is to say that I want to live in contentment.. I want to just be happy with the simple pleasures of life.

The harsh reality is when u have tried ur best.. put in ur greatest effort and still u could not make it. u have to swallow ur pride and admit that u have failed. Hard work is not directly proportional to the success u will achieve. it can only increase ur probability of achieving success.

I will try my best and god will do the rest.

im just a mere mortal... learning to accept the god´s will.

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